thoughts by an overly sensitive, extremely emotional and extremely persuaded individual

ok so im looking at cars. i not buying one for in the very least 6 months. plus i heard buying them in the winter is good, bc dealers are slower than usual. but then again in this economy, everything is slow.
i want sporty, but fuel efficient. i want cool, but not screaming "look at me!" (i can do that enough on my own) it must be STICK. It should be a 4 cylinder, but still would like some pep in my step.
Even though my current heap of trash on wheels is falling apart before my very eyes. it has excellent Fuel Efficiency. She gets 30-32 mpg, pretty much all the freaking time. city or highway-shes my girl. now i have had better, my notorious Ford Escort got 34 and I pushed it once to 37MPG, but it was an ugly car. The Neon is pretty easy on the eyes, but it is too economical looking.

I researched several cars. Bought Consumer Reports Annual Car Guide. Compared a gazillion models.
My faves:
Toyota Corolla, Mazda 3, Mazda Rx8 (though it screams look at me) Honda Civic, And I just found Pontiac G5. sort of like new version of the older grand prix, actually more like the sunbird, but i guess its modeled after the Chevy Cobalt. Anyone have any advice? I am planning to save a few thousand for a down payment and trade in my heap of trash as well....hence the buying wont happen till Xmas or beyond.

I bought a book today about buying Organic Foods. I am trying to eat better and think a bit more about the stuff I feed myself. I mean you are what you eat, do I want to be full of shit?!? I want to decrease my exposure to toxins and pesticides. (I personally believe they may be a link to all my stupid colds and respiratory infections-ask any of my friends who gets sick the most, who goes to the doctor the most, but yet who is strong and "healthy"?) I also want to eat meat still. However in my research, my book compared all conventional methods of growing produce along with meats. It wasn't meant to persuade me, just to show me the difference between the methods and what makes organic, Organic. Well this sucked. Because now I feel bad for all farm animals, including fish. I am not sure how to eat now. I want to continue eating meat, but horrible living conditions dance in my head. Pollution dances in my head caused by animal waste products, when they are not busy being fed their own waste.

So today I couldn't eat anything with a known face. I ate, I dunno, 4 apples, some hash browns, 2 red bell peppers, 2 carrots, a protein shake and then ate 5 or 6 slices of pizza. bc i was hungry and couldn't get myself to eat chicken or tuna. However, I do not think I can learn to like being strictly vegetarian...i do love beansand can tolerate tofu and soy...but I don't know! I feel bad eating a cute animal, I feel bad even if it is ugly bc of how they are forced to live. Not sure how i can find my happy medium. Im sort of hoping this is a phase, but then i feel guilty that im doing nothing to save animals. I do donate to PETA, but Im thinking this makes me sort of a hypocrite? So yeah advice is welcomed here too!

I am really starting to believe ignorance was bliss. I was happier when I knew less about politics. I was happier when I didn't truly know how animals were raised and killed for my pleasure. I was happier when the economy didn't suck. I was happier when I thought Healthcare Reform could be a good thing. I was happier when the Red Sox could beat Tampa and the Yankees. (they are beating tigers, but is that worth celebration? it is only 2 games out of what 6? lol) I was happier when Mix 98.5 was on 98.5. (and for that matter, why didnt they put the new sports radio show on 1041..why did they swap mix down the dial?) Yikes! I need to crawl back to my cave.